8/5/00 - 9:54 pm
Well, well, well.
I've been neglecting this page quite a bit lately. Things have been kind of busy in the emotional department lately. I just got back in touch with a friend and it's hard to talk to her sometimes. Her life has taken her to a strange place that I'm just not capable of understanding.
She just seems to be in a doomed situation. You know how that is, her life is just not set-up to work right now and I don't know how she's going to fix it. I think she knows it, but she's not ready to do something about it yet. I can't blame her . . . there's going to be a time when she's going to have to give up something big, something that she doesn't think she can live without.
I don't know if she'd even recognize herself if she read this . . . I'm sure no one wants to think they're setting themselves up to make a big sacrifice.
I know I sure as hell don't want to.
I think she's just going to wake up some morning and realize that she's got to stand up on her own for a while. All alone . . . that's a scary thing for a girl like that.
Don't get all huffy about my superior attitude, I'm not independent by a conscious choice. It just happened, so I don't get to pat myself on the back or anything. I just think she's got to find out what she really wants before she digs herself too much deeper. Soon she's going to be stuck in a life that I don't think she really wants.
How do I know what she wants?
Well, that's a tough one. I just know that she's not really comfortable about the situation, but she doesn't think she has options. I think she'll get over that. She's gonna need a whole mess of strength for this one.
