7/13/00 - 9:50 pm
Damn, you know how you start out doing something, like this page for instance, and it seems like a good little idea? You think, "Hey, I'll do this out of boredom, but it will be a creative outlet, a way of expressing myself. I can talk to millions of strangers (who may or may not be listening) rather than someone who actually knows me. Not out of denial, but just to try something new and possibly cathartic."
No? You haven't done that before?
Well, I have and now I think it may suck. I guess I just figured that no one that I actually know would ever see this page. I mean, it's more than likely that no one beyond a few robotic spiders will ever experience this text. So, when some one walks in and says "Annaramma? what's that?" and you have to explain that it's a nickname and you know that they just want to say "Oh, orange." As if you asked their opinion . . . It just feels so prying and snooping. It's not their fault really, but I still resent the fact that the last people I wanted to see this page, are the first to see it up.
I wish I had a multitude of readers to e-mail me and tell me that their lives would be saddened by me giving up this page.
Ahh, well . . . (um, that was a windy sigh).
Hmmmm . . . well, I guess I'll just turn in for the night.
Ahem! (by now you should have e-mailed me and told me how much you love me).
G'night folks.
